A Binding Love
By: tayryn
Sept. 6/99
DISCLAIMERS:
This story is NC-17. Only people eighteen and older please.
DEDICATION: this story is dedicated with love to all my perverted friends. You all know who you are, there’s no use in trying to deny it!!!
**Story note: there is mention of the PSI 2000 virus. It’s assumed it was contracted somehow and dealt with accordingly, what happens while the virus is present is what matters.**
Now, to the story...
A BINDING LOVE
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" She screamed at him, her grip on his hand tightening as another fierce contraction ripped through her body.
"My fault?!" He said incredulously. "I’m not the one who insisted on coming on the survey mission in my ninth month of pregnancy."
"You could’ve said something." Her face began to contort as another contraction began. Her teeth clenched. "Tried ... to ... talk ... me ... out ... of ... this. OH GOD!"
"Right. Talk Kathryn Janeway out of something once her mind’s made up." He laughed and then winced as her hand clamped down on his fingers. "Okay, Kathryn. I want you to breathe."
"What the hell do you think I’m trying to do?" She panted as she fell back against the pillows on the floor. "Oh, God! How much longer is this going to take?"
"I honestly don’t know." He answered, pulling out his hand out of her grip and edging down to peer between her legs. "Let me check."
"Do you see anything" she asked and was met with silence. "Well?! Is your child ready to make an entrance, Chakotay?"
He lifted his head, smiled and nodded.
"I can see the head." Chakotay said and glanced down at his tricorder. "Okay, Kathryn, on the next contraction, I want you to push. Push with all your might."
She nodded and Chakotay saw her body tense up as the contraction started.
"Okay, Kathryn. PUSH!"
"Ohh! ... Ungh ... Oh God!" She screamed. "Oh god, I can’t do this!"
Chakotay reached out and grabbed her hand, giving it a squeeze.
"Yes, you can." He said encouragingly.
"Oh shut up!" She yelled. "This is all your fault!"
"I’m not the one who showed up in your quarters nine months ago, dressed to kill and looking to do something exciting." He said. "Push, Kathryn!"
"Ungh!" She groaned again. "You could’ve said no."
He laughed and thought back to that night.
=/\= =/\= =/\=
**that night, nine months ago**
-BRE-OOP-
Chakotay stood starring out the viewport. His hands were gripping the edges of the window so tight, his knuckles were white. His eyes were on the stars, but he didn’t see them.
-BRE-OOP-
"COME IN!" he growled, not turning, upset that the fantasy he’d been having had been interrupted. "THIS HAD BETTER BE DAMNED IMPORTANT!"
"CHAKOTAY!" Kathryn called out, breezing into his cabin. "I’m in the mood to do something exciting. Are you up for it?"
She stopped suddenly as she noticed his rigid stance, white knuckles and the fact he wasn’t wearing a shirt.
"Chakotay?" She asked. "Are you all right?"
"I’m fine, Kathryn." He answered, not turning. "And, to answer your question, yes, I’m in the mood for something exciting."
"Got any suggestions?" She asked.
"Oh, quite a few." He said so she had to strain to hear him. "But I don’t think you’d be interested."
Kathryn felt her skin flush at his comment, knowing full well what he meant.
"You’re treading on dangerous ground." Her Captain’s voice sounded through the haze in her mind. "I don’t care," she thought back. "Not tonight."
"Try me." She said, the dare in her voice.
"Be careful what you say, Kathryn." He said, turning his head slightly towards her. "I’m not sure I can keep myself reigned in this time."
She walked over to her and placed her hand on his arm.
"Chakotay."
It came out sounding like a plea.
He turned and she gasped.
His eyes were wild with desire and as she lowered her eyes, she saw his very large erection straining against his pants.
"Oh my!" She gasped again and looked up into his face.
"I think you should go, Kathryn." He said, his voice tight. "Go now. Before your precious protocols are irrevocably breached. I can’t control what this virus is doing to me. And that dress you’re wearing isn't helping."
Her eyes locked with his.
"Leave, Kathryn." He said again, turning his back to her and staring out the window. "Please!"
She heard the desperation in his voice with that last word, and in the space of a heartbeat made her decision.
She ducked under his arm, stepping between him and the window.
"Damn the protocols!" She hissed, moving her hands up his chest. "And full speed ahead. I can’t control this damn virus either."
She watched his eyes widen and then yelped in pain as he slammed her body into the window with his, knocking the breath out of her.
Before she knew it, his mouth was on hers, his tongue ravaging deep inside her mouth. She returned the kiss with equal passion, her tongue wrestling with his.
She moaned into his mouth as she felt the heat of his hands through the satin of her dress, seemingly everywhere on her body at once.
Her hands wound about his neck, clasping his mouth to hers, deepening the kiss even more.
Suddenly she gasped as she felt her dress ripping away as Chakotay gave it a yank.
He broke of the kiss and took a step back, his eyes raking over her body. They widened even more as they moved over her breasts, full and heaving, unencumbered by a bra. His gaze grew even more heated as he continued his journey down her body and came upon the black lace G-string she wore.
"Please tell me you don’t wear these under your uniform." He said huskily, running his fingers lightly over the lace.
Kathryn gave a throaty laugh.
"As a matter of fact, I do." She replied. "With the matching bra."
He gave a growl of approval as he dropped to his knees and pulled her to him, burying his face in her breasts.
She moaned as his hands came up and cupped her breasts, pressing them against the sides of his face, his thumbs moving over her nipples.
"So beautiful." She heard him murmur just as he took her right nipple in his mouth.
Her hands went to his head and held him to his task. Another moan escaped her lips as released her right breast and moved to the left one, swirling his tongue al over it.
Chakotay ran his hands down her sides and stopped at the string resting just above the flair of her hips.
He lifted his head and looked up at her.
"You’ll have to model a pair of these for me later." He grinned. "Because these ones are going to be useless."
"Wha ... oh!" She cried out as he grabbed hold of the tiny panties and tore them off, throwing them across the room.
He grabbed her waist and lifted her so that she was sitting on the window ledge. He grabbed her left leg and lifted it onto his shoulder as he inched closer.
Kathryn gasped his name as his lips brushed against her auburn curls. And when his tongue slipped between her swollen folds to make contact with the pearl of her desire, she arched against his mouth, crying out his name.
"Chakotay!" She moaned. "Oh God, that feels wonderful!"
Chakotay just barely heard her moans over the blood pounding in his ears and grinned to himself. As the scent of her arousal washed over him, he pressed his mouth harder against her, taking her clit between his lips and sucking wildly on it.
Suddenly she bucked wildly as he slipped first one finger and then another inside her.
Kathryn’s head fell back against the window and she was panting for breath as he began to move his mouth in tandem with his fingers. She desperately wanted to thread her fingers in his hair and hold him tight against her, but she had to keep a firm grip on the window ledge to keep from falling off.
Chakotay felt her inner muscles begin to quiver and clench his finger and knew she was close to her release.
Kathryn meanwhile, felt all the sensations that were centered where his mouth and fingers were working their magic begin to flow through her veins like lava, superheating her body.
Chakotay quickened the pace of his fingers and mouth as she brought her other leg up onto his shoulder, once again arching herself into his expert mouth.
All of a sudden, her thighs clamped around his head as her release hit her like a bolt of lightning. Her body tensed and lifted off the ledge as she called out his name.
Chakotay quickly switched the places of his mouth and fingers, allowing his tongue to enter her and taste her juices, while his thumb continued to stimulate her.
Slowly, Kathryn’s body, although still quivering lost a lot of it’s tension and she fell back against the window ledge.
Chakotay pulled his head back, kissed her thighs before moving them off his shoulders and then stood up.
Kathryn watched through lidded eyes as Chakotay quickly removed his pants. Her eyes grew wide as his throbbing erection sprang free from its confines.
"Oh my!" She exclaimed, echoing her earlier sentiments.
She leaned forward and reached out her hand tracing his length with her finger, from the head down the shaft to his belly and back again.
Chakotay held his breath as he watched her lean forward and with a flick of her tongue, licked the bead of moisture that had formed on the head. He watched her tongue disappear back into her mouth and then return to moisten her lips.
He saw the sparkle in her eye and noticed that she was preparing to slip to her knees.
"Oh, no you don’t!" He said, grabbing her arms and pulling her to her feet.
She ran her hands up his chest and leaned in to place a kiss on his neck.
"It’s only fair to repay you in kind." She purred.
"Later." He said, moving his hands to her waist. "Right now I want to be inside you."
"Is that a fact?" She asked, raising an eyebrow.
"It is." He said and lifted her into the air.
With that said, he moved her against the wall and with one sure stroke; he impaled himself deep inside her.
"CHAKOTAY!!" She screamed as he filled her so completely that she thought he’d rip her in two. He started to slowly move in and out of her, causing her to moan his name again.
She wrapped her legs around his hips and thrust herself against him, this time causing him to moan.
He wrapped his arms around her and held her tight against him as he took a step away from the wall, turned and lowered himself to his knees.
His mouth found hers for a toe-curling kiss as he slowly laid them down on the floor. He broke off the kiss and raised himself up on his arms.
With his hands on either side of her head, he began to thrust into her once again. He moved with slow strokes, which caused her to moan.
Her legs, which had fallen to the floor, rewrapped around his hips and she thrust her body up to his, meeting each stroke of his, at the same time clenching her muscles tight around him, eliciting a deep groan from him.
"God! Kathryn!" He groaned.
He began to move faster, his strokes becoming short and fast.
Kathryn’s arms moved around him, her nails scoring trails down his back.
"Oh... oh... Chakotay!" She cried out, the tension in her body building.
Chakotay felt her body begin to tense and his movements became erratic.
Suddenly her body stiffened and she screamed out his name over and over, as every nerve ending in her body seemed to explode in a kaleidoscope of sensations. Her body then began to thrash wildly, his name on her lips.
Seconds later, with a final deep thrust, Chakotay shot his release deep into her womb and groaned out her name as he collapsed on top of her.
They laid together in a tangle of limbs and heaving bodies, murmuring each other’s names.
=/\= =/\= =/\=
"Ungh! Oh God!"
Chakotay shook his head and chuckled.
"As I recall, I did try to get you to leave. You’re the one who nixed that idea." He glanced down and his eyes widened. "I can see the head!"
She looked up at him and smiled, despite the pain and discomfort.
"Okay, one more push and our child will be here with us." He said. "And this time, you’ve got to keep pushing until I say."
She nodded.
"Chakotay?"
"Yes?"
Her face contorted again.
"I meant what I said." She gasped and began to bear down. "THIS ... IS ... ALL ... YOUR ... FAULT!"
"I love you too, Kathryn!" He said with a grin. "Now PUSH!"
Kathryn groaned and pushed with all her might.
A few moments later, she heard a small slap and then the strong new cries of her newborn baby.
"Chakotay?" She asked, her voice shaking, falling back on the pillows, her eyes full of questions.
He looked up at her, his face full of wonder.
"We have a daughter." He whispered. "A beautiful baby girl."
Kathryn smiled, her eyes full of tears.
"Here," he said, handing her the squirming bundle. "Take her while I clean you up."
Kathryn took her daughter in her arms. She lifted the edge of the towel and peered down into the tiny face.
"Hello, my precious little love." She cooed, running her finger softly over the little cheek. "I’ve been waiting to meet you."
"That makes two of us." Chakotay said, sliding into place beside her. "Here." He said, handing her a glass of water.
"Thanks." She said, taking the glass and sipping.
"How do you feel?" He asked.
"Like I just passed a photon torpedo." She answered, smiling softly.
He chuckled.
"I’m sure that’ll pass."
They both grinned.
"She’s beautiful." Chakotay said softly, looking down at his daughter. He glanced up at Kathryn with tears in his eyes. "Just like her mother."
"I am anything but beautiful at this moment." She chuckled.
"Oh, I disagree." He said. "You’ve never looked more beautiful to me then you do right now."
"You’re crazy, Chakotay." She said with an affectionate smile on her face.
"Only about you, Kathryn." He said, taking her hand in his and resting them on his daughter.
"I’ve been thinking." She said after a moment.
"About what we should name this little one." He said.
"Well, that too." She said. "But I’ve also been thinking, what are we going to do about us. And what are we going to tell our daughter about why her parents aren’t married?"
Chakotay looked at her, not quite sure about what he was reading in her eyes.
"What about us?" He asked. "Besides, we had these conversations already."
=/\= =/\= =/\=
**nine months earlier**
Kathryn rolled over onto her back, trying desperately not to wake up.
"What a wonderful dream." She thought to herself as stretched and sighed happily.
As she stretched, her muscles protested loudly and her eyes opened.
"Oh God!" She thought as it dawned on her that she wasn’t in her bed. "It wasn’t a dream."
She heard a sound and turned her head to find herself looking up into Chakotay's eyes.
He said nothing. He just lay propped up on his elbow looking down at her.
They looked at each other for a few moments without speaking before Kathryn decided she’s better leave.
She moved to get out of the bed.
He placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Kathryn." He said softly. She turned back to look at him. "We need to talk."
"Let’s into the living room." She suggested.
"No." He said. "I want to talk here. Just the two of us, not the commanding officers."
"But that’s who we are." She said.
"Everyone has many faces, Kathryn." He commented.
She sat up, pulling the sheet around her and took a deep breath.
"Cha..."
He put his finger to her lips.
"Let me go first." He said and she nodded. He took a deep breath and continued. "I know what you’re thinking. This shouldn’t have happened."
Her eyes widened. She’d been expecting him to plead with her to continue this now that it’d happened. Not this.
"Surprised?" He asked. "I agree, Kathryn. This shouldn’t have happened now when it did."
"That sure it was going to happen at all?" She commented with a small smile.
"Oh yes." He said matter of factly.
The way he said it raised goosebumps all over her body and caused her heart to skip a beat.
"I have no doubt that you and I are meant to be together." He continued. "I know you’ve vowed to get this ship home and that you’ve placed that above all else. Including a relationship with me."
She didn’t say anything, just kept looking at him.
"I accept that. And I’m willing to wait." He said.
"It could take us so many years to get home." She said. "You’re willing to wait that long?"
"Yes." He said simply.
"Why?" She asked, yet already knowing in her heart what he’d say.
"Because I think you’re worth it." He answered and then his voice grew softer. "That and I love you."
Her eyes filled with tears.
"I love you, too." She whispered, reaching out and taking his hand. "Oh Chakotay! What do we do?"
He gave her hand a squeeze.
"We continue as we always have." He said. "I expect us to be friends still."
"Do you think we can go back to being just friends?" She asked.
"No." He said. "And I don’t expect us to." He smiled at the confused look on her face. "I expect our relationship to grow from this. I expect us to be even closer than we have been. If you need a shoulder to cry on, I want you to cry on mine. I need you to know that I’m here for you."
"I know you’re here for me." She said. "You always have been."
"And I always will be." He stated and then grinned. "And don’t start worrying about what the crew thinks."
"How’d you know I was thinking that?" She smiled.
"Because I know you." He answered. "And as for the crew, half of them think we’re fooling around now. And those that don’t think that, think we should be."
She blushed.
"Do you honestly think we can this? Just be friends? No more than that?" She asked. "Not give in to the sexual tension between us?"
"Yes, I do." He answered. "What happened last night would not have happened if not for the virus." He paused and smiled. "And who knows, maybe it’ll help take the edge off the tension."
She didn’t say anything for a few moments.
"And you’re willing to work by my side and just be friends until we make it home?" She asked, still not believing.
"Yes." He said and then a grin came to his face. "And when we get home, you better be prepared. Because I’m going to pursue you like a Klingon hunting a Targ."
That made her smile.
"You’re mine, Kathryn." He said. "My heart is yours. Just as yours is mine. Our hearts and souls are bound together with love. Nothing will ever change that."
The way he said it with such conviction sent a thrill through her.
"You’re in for the hunt of your life you know." she said, her voice laced with affectionate humor. "I won’t be an easy prey."
Chakotay grinned and pulled her into his embrace, pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
"I wouldn’t expect otherwise." He said. "And I’d be disappointed if you were. Nothing worth having is ever easy."
She wrapped her arms around his back and rested her head against his chest listening to his heart.
"This will work." She said softly. "I know it will."
=/\= =/\= =/\=
**one month later**
"I’m what?!" Kathryn asked incredulously, as she swung her legs down off the bed and sitting up. "I can’t be."
"I've run the test twice." The doctor said. "You are exactly four weeks pregnant."
"Oh god." She moaned.
"And the baby’s father is..."
"I know who the father is." She snapped, then her face softened. "Sorry, Doctor. This is just a shock, that’s all."
"I gathered that." The hologram said and checked his readings again. "Four weeks gestational growth. That means you conceived at the time..."
"The PSI 2000 virus was on board." Janeway said nodding her head.
"Then I gather this has not been an ongoing uhm, relationship?"
Janeway shook her head.
"No. It only happened the one time." She said quietly, thinking back to that night, one that had become a treasured memory. "I still don’t understand how this could have happened. I’ve received all my boosters."
The doctor checked his records and then shook his head.
"What?"
"According to my records, you missed one and the last one was a week late due to the virus."
"What about...?" She stopped, not wanting to say his name just yet. "Hasn’t he received all his boosters?"
"No." The doctor said. "He’s allergic to the medicine, therefore he doesn’t receive the shots."
Kathryn looked down at her abdomen and instinctively her hand came up to rest on it.
"A baby?" She said softly. "I can’t have a baby now."
The doctor turned to her, his face serious.
"There are other options." He said.
Kathryn looked up at him, knowing what he meant.
"I... oh. Oh God." She stammered. "I can’t make that decision just yet.’
"God." The doctor said. "You should discuss this with Commander Chakotay first. It’s your body, but it’s also his child. He does have a right to know."
Kathryn nodded.
"You’re right." She said. "I have to tell him. And then we’ll both decide."
"Very well." He said. "You’re all finished then, Captain. You may return to duty."
"Thank you, Doctor." She said standing up and heading for the door. She paused. "Oh and, Doctor..."
"I know. Keep it under my hat." He said. "I understand."
"Thank you."
With that she turned and left sickbay.
Five hours after she’d left sickbay, Janeway was back, lying prone on a bio-bed.
"How is she, Doc?" Chakotay asked anxiously.
"Well, she had a broken leg, a broken arm." He began. "She also had three cracked ribs and a bunch of minor cuts and bruises. All of which I’ve repaired and treated."
"So, she’s going to be okay?"
The Doctor sighed.
"Yes, Commander." He said. "You’ll be happy to hear that both the Captain and the baby are going to just fine."
Chakotay did a double take.
"Baby?" He asked. "What baby?"
The doctor’s eyes widened.
"The Captain didn’t tell you?" He said. "She said she was going to."
Chakotay raised his hand, halting the doctor.
"She called me into her readyroom before all this happened, to talk. But we never got started." Chakotay said. "That’s probably when she was going to tell me."
"I see."
"How long until she wakes up?" Chakotay asked, looking down at her.
"Should be anytime now." The doctor replied. "The sedative I gave her should be wearing off anytime now."
"Good."
"Well, if you’ll excuse me, I’ve got some reports to finish."
"Thank you, Doc." Chakotay said absently.
He reached for a chair and pulled it beside the bio-bed. Sitting in it, he placed his hand on Kathryn’s abdomen.
"A baby." He whispered, a smile forming his lips. His other hand stroked her hair. "We’re having a baby, Kathryn."
He grinned then, a huge smile that brought out his dimples.
"Boy this certainly wreaks havoc with our agreement."
Just then her eyes fluttered.
"Kathryn?"
"Mmm…" she moaned and slowly opened her eyes. Upon realizing where she was, her hand flew to her abdomen, coming into contact with his. She looked at him. "You know?"
He nodded.
"Is... Is it?"
"Our baby’s fine." He said and she sighed gratefully.
"I was going to tell you." She said softly.
"I know." He said and paused, his hand moving absently under hers. "So, what are we going to do?"
"I don’t know." She answered. "But I do know that I want this child. I don’t care what else happens."
Chakotay smiled.
"That sounds like the Kathryn I know and love."
She smiled.
"Don’t worry, Kathryn. We’ll figure something out. We always do."
=/\= =/\= =/\=
Chakotay looked down at Kathryn, who was nursing the baby.
"I should have brought the Doc’s holo-vid camera." He said. "This is a beautiful picture."
"You’re crazy, Chakotay." She chuckled.
"And I told you, I’m crazy only about you." He said.
"As I am about you." She said bringing her hand up to caress his cheek.
Chakotay turned his face in her hand and pressed a kiss into her palm.
"Why don’t you try to get some rest," he said. "I’m going to turn the shuttle around and head back to Voyager."
"I’ll try."
"Are you comfortable enough?" He asked. "Would you like some more pillows? Blankets?"
"Yes I’m comfortable. And no, I don’t need anything else." She smiled.
"Okay. Just making sure."
"You’re incredible, Chakotay." She said.
"Why’s that?" He asked standing up.
"Because you’re always taking care of me. Putting my needs before yours."
"I always will." He said and then moved to turn away. "Now get some rest."
"Yes, sir!" She smiled and watched him move to the front of the shuttle.
"We are very lucky little one." She said to her nursing daughter. "Your father is the most generous, loving man in the universe and he’s all ours."
The baby opened her eyes, looked up at Kathryn and then closed them again as she resumed nursing.
Kathryn brushed her finger over her daughter’s cheek and smiled as she thought back over the last seven months.
During her third month, the wall between their quarters had come down, opening the two living rooms into each other.
Chakotay had been shocked when she suggested it.
"Well, you are the baby’s father." She had said, smiling at the shocked expression on his face as they sat on the couch in her quarters.
"Yes, I know that." He had replied. "But are you sure? I mean, what about our agreement?"
"What about it?" She had asked. "You’ll still have your room and I’ll have mine. It’s just that now our living rooms will be joined." She had paused and moved closer to him, taking his hand in hers. "Besides, I know you. And I know you’ll want to be involved in every aspect of this pregnancy."
She had smiled at him then with that quirky half smile of hers.
"And I want you there, too." She said. "During and after."
Chakotay had squeezed her hand.
"You know I’ll be there. Every step of the way."
Shortly after that, the wall came down.
And even though she’d been the one to suggest it, Kathryn thought it might be a little awkward between them at first. She’d never been happier to be proved wrong.
Chakotay respected her privacy and also took to doing little things to make her life easier.
Gazing down at her daughter, who had fallen asleep while nursing, Kathryn smiled as she remembered a particular night, just over three weeks ago.
=/\= =/\= =/\=
A very pregnant Kathryn Janeway entered her quarters.
Chakotay looked up from his desk and smiled at her from across the room.
"How was your day?" He asked as he’d had the day off.
"Tiring." She sighed as she kicked off her boots and shed the maternity jacket she was wearing. "I’ve always considered my chair to be quite comfortable. But lately, it’s been the most uncomfortable thing I’ve ever sat in."
Chakotay chuckled.
"It wouldn’t have anything to do with the fact that you’re eight months pregnant would it?"
"Of course not." She said with a smile and stuck her tongue out at him.
"Why don’t you go relax in a nice hot bath while I fix us something to eat?" He suggested.
"That sounds wonderful." She said. "But I don’t think I could wait for the tub to fill."
He got up and walked over to her.
"You don’t have to." He said. "It’s already filled and waiting."
She smiled up at him and then moved against him and gave him a hug.
"Thank you." She said against his chest.
He slipped a finger under her chin and tilted her face up to look at him.
"Just looking after the mother of my child." He said softly, his eyes saying all he didn’t.
She brought her hand up to caress his cheek.
"What would I do without you?" She asked softly.
"You’ll never have to find out." He said, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek. He then turned her in his arms and gently pushed her towards her bathroom. "Go. Relax. I’ll let you know when dinner is ready."
Kathryn nodded and moved towards the bathroom, her hands caressing her swollen belly.
"Your daddy is a very special man." She said quietly to the child growing within her.
Chakotay heard this and smiled.
"Not half as special as her mother." He called out.
Twenty minutes later, soaking happily in the hot water, Kathryn turned her head to glance at the chronometer. She cried out softly as the muscle in her neck seized up.
Seconds later, Chakotay appeared in the doorway.
"What happened? What’s wrong?" He asked. "Is it the baby?"
Kathryn couldn’t help but smile.
"A muscle in my neck seized up in my neck. That’s all." She said. "Sorry I startled you."
"Well you’re forgiven this time." He said. "Would you like me to massage it for you?"
"Would you?"
He walked into the room and pulled his shirt off as he kneeled behind her.
"I am but at your service, milady." He said as he warmed his hands and then began massaging her neck.
"Mmm… that feels good." She murmured happily.
"That’s funny. It’s supposed to."
She smiled lazily and tried to keep from sliding into the tub.
Ten minutes later, Chakotay leaned forward and pressed a kiss to her hair.
"There. How’s that?" He asked.
Kathryn rolled her head around.
"Much better. Thank you." She said and then looked for her towel.
She saw it sitting over on the bench, out of arms reach.
"Uh, Chakotay?"
He chuckled and stood up. He walked over and grabbed the towel.
"Honestly, Kathryn." He was saying. "It sometimes makes me wonder how you’re able to run this ship as well as you do."
"Oh shut up!" She laughed. "And bring me my towel."
"Yes, ma’am." He quipped and turned back to face her. She was still sitting in the tub. "Is there a problem?"
She gave him that quirky half smile of hers.
"I’m having trouble getting up."
Chakotay chuckled and walked over to her. Throwing the towel over his shoulder, he held his hands out and helped her stand and climb out of the tub.
"Here." He said handing he the towel. "I’ll go grab your robe."
"Thank you." She said, toweling off her upper body.
When he returned with her robe, she was standing with the towel in front of her and that half smile on her face again.
He smiled at her as he held out her robe.
"What do you need help with now?" He asked good-naturedly.
"I can’t bend over far enough to dry my legs." She said, slightly pouting.
Chakotay chuckled, dropped the robe on the bench and walked over to her.
She smiled sweetly at him and handed him the towel.
He knelt down before her.
"The things I do for love." He murmured.
"Thank you." She said. "You’re an angel."
Chakotay looked up at her and smiled.
"I know."
He began to dry her legs, starting with her left foot and working his way up.
Without realizing it, as he moved the towel over her thighs, his hands brushed lightly against the curls at the apex of her thighs.
She gasped softly as it sent a shiver through her body.
"Sorry." He said.
"Mmhmm." She murmured softly, afraid to speak for fear he’d realize how aroused she was getting.
He moved the towel to her right leg and began again with her foot.
As he slowly moved the towel up her leg, he inhaled deeply and the scent of her arousal assaulted his senses. He paused with the towel on her thigh.
"Chakotay?’ She asked softly, her voice trembling.
He looked up at her and saw that her eyes were clouded with desire.
Without speaking or getting up, he guided her over to the bench. He sat her down, pulling her close to the edge, her legs spread.
Before she could stop him, he buried his face in her curls.
"Chakotay!" She gasped as she felt his mouth close around the flesh of bundled nerves.
Her hands flew to his head and she tried to push him away, at the same time she tried to back away from his questing lips.
"Chakotay. Don’t." She said breathlessly. "The agreement."
He lifted his head.
"Let me do this for you, Kathryn." He said quietly. "You’ve needed this for a while now."
"I... oh God!" She moaned as he blew a cool breath against her curls. She thrust herself against him,
Chakotay took that as a sign to proceed and once again moved his mouth over her swollen folds.
He grasped her right leg and drew it up over his shoulder.
Holding her right thigh in his hand, he slowly moved his other hand up along her leg and then slipped two of his fingers inside her.
Kathryn moaned and her head fell back against the bench, letting the sensations wash over her.
Chakotay worked at his task single-mindedly, his fingers moving in and out of her in concert with his lips and tongue.
Kathryn thought she would go mad when he began to alternate his fingers and mouth, moving them back and forth over and inside her.
It wasn’t long before she felt it begin. The coil of sensations that were winding and building in her loins slowly began to unwind and break apart, coursing through her body.
Small tremors began to assault her body and she started thrusting herself against him.
She began to whimper his name as her mind lost all coherent thought due to the overwhelming sensations storming her senses.
Suddenly she cried out his name and began to thrash wildly against his mouth and hand.
Chakotay felt her inner muscles tighten as her release enveloped her completely. He continued to suck on her and move his fingers until he felt her muscles relax and her body stop thrashing.
He slowly withdrew his fingers and replaced them with his tongue, lapping up her juices like a man dying of thirst.
Kathryn slowly came down off the cloud she was floating on and looked down. And although she couldn’t see his head over her belly, she could feel his tongue moving over her.
Just the thought of it caused another small tremor of sensations to shake her body.
When Chakotay felt her body finally lose its tension, he lifted his head and looked up at her.
She smiled at him softly.
He smiled back and then sidled over to the tub.
Kathryn watched him wet the face cloth, wipe his face and then rewet the cloth.
He moved back to her and with gentle strokes, he cleaned her up.
When he finished, he threw the cloth back at the tub and then quickly toweled her off.
He stood up and offered her a hand. She took it and he helped her up. He grabbed her robe and wrapped it around her.
Kathryn lowered her eyes and watched as he tied the robe. In doing this, she noticed his aroused state.
She reached out her hand and cupped his straining member through his pants. She felt him throb against her palm.
He groaned and grabbed her hand.
"Kathryn, don’t." He said.
"Chakotay." She said softly, her voice still laced with desire. "Let me help you the way you helped me."
He shook his head and clasped both of her hands to his chest.
"No. I’ll be all right." He said and then a small grin appeared on his face. "Giving you pleasure gives me pleasure."
"But, Cha..."
He pressed a finger to her lips.
"Sssh…" he said. "I don’t want to hear anymore. I can take care of this myself. Your well-being is more important."
He paused and brought her hands to his lips, kissing her knuckles.
"Now, you get dressed and I’ll go finish making supper."
With that, he released her hands and left.
She watched him leave with a smile on her face and then looked down as she felt the baby kick.
She moved her hands over her belly.
"Like I said, little one. Your daddy is a very special man."
=/\= =/\= =/\=
Chakotay turned from the console and found Kathryn smiling at him.
"What?" He asked.
She shook her head, but didn’t lose her smile.
"Nothing." She replied. "I was just thinking."
"Care to tell me what about?"
"Oh about a certain First Officer and what a wonderful man he is."
He smiled.
"Well, I’ve got a pretty terrific Captain myself." He said. "So have you given anymore thought as to what we should name our daughter?"
She shook her head and looked down at the baby.
Chakotay got up and walked over to them.
"Here, Daddy." She said with a smile. "Why don’t you hold your little girl for a while?"
Chakotay smiled and took his sleeping daughter into his arms.
Kathryn straightened her dress and moved to get up.
"Hey!" He said. "What do you think you’re doing?"
"I’m getting up and going to sit down in the chair over there." She said pointing to one of the chairs in the front of the shuttle. "So, would you be a dear and help me up."
"Kathryn, are you sure?" He asked. "Shouldn’t you remain where you are?"
"I will not return to Voyager, sprawled out on the floor of a shuttlecraft. Thank you very much." She said. "Now give me a hand up."
Chakotay shifted his daughter to one arm and with his free hand he helped Kathryn stand, albeit shakily on her feet.
"Here, lean against me." He said, moving his arm around her waist.
"Thank you." She said and then moaned softly as she walked to the seat. She sat down gingerly. "However, I will let you carry me to sickbay if you’d like."
Chakotay laughed as he sat in the pilot’s chair.
"You’re too much, Kathryn." He said. "But I love you anyway."
She just smiled at him as she tried not to fidget in the chair.
"So, have you thought of a name for our daughter?" She asked.
He shook his head.
"It should be something unique and yet should be from both of us." He said. "Just as she is from both of us."
Suddenly an idea popped into her head and she smiled.
"I’ve got it!" She said snapping her fingers. "Tell me what you think. Tayryn."
"Tayryn." He said. "Tayryn Janeway."
The baby’s eyes opened and she looked up at her father.
"I think she likes it." He said and then he smiled at Kathryn. "And so do I. A little bit from me and a little bit from you."
"So Tayryn it is." She said.
Just then the console beeped, followed by Tuvok’s voice.
"Voyager to Sacajawea."
"Here, take Tayryn." He said, handing the baby back to Kathryn. He then tabbed a control on the console. "Sacajawea here. Go ahead, Tuvok."
"Sensors indicate that you are on a return course to Voyager. You
are not scheduled to rendezvous for another day. Is there a problem?"
"No, Tuvok. No problem." Chakotay said. "The baby just decided to make her arrival a couple weeks early."
Over the commline they heard a lot of cheering and clapping from the bridge staff.
"Allow me to offer my congratulations."
"Thank you." Said Chakotay. "Please have the Doctor standing by in Sickbay. We should be there in approximately twenty minutes."
"Very wel,l
Commander. Voyager out."
Chakotay looked over at Kathryn.
"Well, should we take our daughter home?"
She nodded.
"Yes, let’s take Tayryn home."
=/\= =/\= =/\=
An hour and a half later, Kathryn and Chakotay entered their quarters, carrying their daughter.
"Welcome home, little one." Kathryn said, smiling down at the sleeping infant.
"Well let’s put her down and then get you into bed." Chakotay said, ushering her towards the bedroom.
"Oh, Chakotay." She began. "We don’t have a..."
She stopped mid sentence as they entered her bedroom.
At the foot of her bed, stood a wooden cradle.
"Oh my!" She gasped and walked over to it. She ran her hand along the smooth edge. "It’s beautiful! How? Who?"
"I’m glad you like it." He said quietly.
"You did this?"
"Yes."
"When? How?"
"Remember when we stopped at Nonac 9 a couple of months ago?" She nodded. "Well I managed to get my hands on some lumber."
"How were you able to do this without my knowing? And where’d you keep it?"
"I had the lumber stored in the cargo bay and that’s where I worked on it."
"When you were supposed to be in the holodeck working out." She said.
He nodded.
"The crew had been warned that if you found out about it, heads would roll." He said with a grin. "And just before we left, I asked Tom and B’Ellana to move it in here."
Kathryn laid Tayryn in the cradle and then turned to Chakotay.
"I love it." She said as she moved close to him. "And I love you all the more for it."
She wrapped her arms around him a loving hug.
"You’re welcome." He said, his arms going around her.
After a few minutes, Chakotay pulled away.
"Now, it’s your turn to lie down." He said. "After all you promised the Doctor you would."
She sighed.
"All right."
He watched as she climbed under the blanket.
"Pleasant dreams." He said and turned to leave.
"Chakotay?"
He turned back to her.
"Yes?"
"You never did answer my question when we were on the shuttle." She said. "What are we going to tell her about us?"
He gazed at her for a moment before answering.
"We’ll tell her the truth." He said. "That her mommy and daddy love each other very much, but that getting Voyager home has to come first. But that doesn’t mean we love each other any less or aren’t just as committed to each other, because we’re not married."
"And we’ll tell her that as soon as we make it home o the Alpha Quadrant, that her parents will get married."
"Chakotay." She said, shaking her head.
"Kathryn,” he interrupted. "It’s what we agreed. Now you have to rest."
She nodded and he left.
"Boy do I have a surprise for you, Chakotay." She said softly and soon fell fast asleep, a plan forming in her mind.
=/\= =/\= =/\=
**Six months later.
Commander Chakotay entered his quarters to find Kathryn in her robe, curled up on the couch going over a PADD.
"Have a good day?" She asked.
"The usual." He said, kicking his boots off and flinging them towards his side of their quarters.
"Let’s see." He began, unzipping and removing his jacket. "Seven and B’Ellana got into yet, another argument."
He flung the jacket towards his quarters and it landed on the floor.
"About?" She asked, watching him remove his turtleneck and throwing it after the jacket.
"Oh about ways to make the warp engines more efficient."
Kathryn laughed.
"And then," he said, his voice muffled as he pulled his tank top over his head. "Ensigns Quinn and Corday got into a tussle over the state of their quarters."
He threw the tank after his other clothes.
"And with all the other usual problems, it was a typical day." He paused and stretched. "How was yours?"
Kathryn stood and walked towards his quarters.
"Pretty good." She said, picking up his clothes and beginning to fold them. "Tayryn took a few more steps after you left at lunch and she’s cutting another tooth."
"Kathryn? What are you doing?" He asked, watching her with a bemused smile. "I’ve told you before, just leave them. I’ll pick them up later."
"Just you nevermind." She said. "You know I can’t stand it when you just throw them on the floor."
"Well, if you must know. I was aiming for the couch." He teased and then turned and headed for Kathryn’s bedroom to see his daughter.
A minute later he walked back out.
"Where’s the ba..." he stopped short in the doorway when he saw her, "…by?" He finished.
Kathryn was standing in the living room, her robe puddled on the floor at her feet, leaving her clad in only a very short, almost sheer negligee.
Chakotay felt his groin tighten as he gazed at her. She’d long since shed what weight she’d gained during her pregnancy and he thought she looked even more beautiful now then she did before she got pregnant.
"Kathryn?" He said, his voice tight.
"
"Kathryn." He said again. "What are you doing?’
"What does it look like I’m doing?" She said stopping directly in front of him and placing her hands on his chest. She pushed him against the doorframe. "I’m seducing you."
The way she said it, so blatantly, her already throaty voice huskier with passion caused his already hardening member to become uncomfortably hard and strain against his pants.
"I’ve been thinking." She purred, her hands moving down his chest. "I believe we need to rethink our agreement."
And before Chakotay could stop her, she had the fastening to his pants open and slid her hands in to clasp his aching manhood.
He groaned deep in his throat as she began to move her hands on him, stroking him gently.
"Kathryn, are you sure about this?" He asked, trying to think through the haze her hands were causing in his mind.
"Oh, yes." She said as she pushed his pants down and dropped to her knees.
"Oh god, Kathryn!" He moaned as she took his throbbing manhood in her mouth.
Kathryn smiled inwardly at his outburst and proceeded to take his entire length inside her mouth. She pulled back slowly and swirled her tongue over the sensitive head, as her one hand moved up and down the shaft.
Her free hand came up and began to massage his balls as she began to move him in and out of her mouth.
Chakotay’s mind exploded as he looked down and watched her take him completely in her mouth again and again.
He was glad she’d pushed him against the doorframe or else he probably would’ve fallen over from sensory overload due to the pleasurable sensations shooting through his body.
Kathryn switched moves and began licking and kissing her way down the length of his shaft, from the head to his sac, which she also paid careful attention to.
When she once again took him into her mouth, his hands flew to her head and he clenched them in her hair.
"Oh God... KATHRYN!" He moaned. "I... can’t."
He tried to pull her up, to stop her before he lost control. But she wrapped a hand around him, holding the cheek of his ass, refusing to budge.
Suddenly, his hips began to jerk wildly as the pressure from her mouth increased.
"KATHRYN!"
He shouted her name, his hands clenching tighter in her hair as his orgasm overpowered him and he exploded in her mouth.
Kathryn felt him pull on her hair almost painfully, but paid little attention. All of her energy was focused on the hot juice flowing into her mouth and down her throat like sweet nectar.
A few moments later, after his quaking stopped and still amazed that he’d remained standing, Chakotay looked down to see Kathryn let his, now, semi hard member slip from her mouth.
She smiled up at him and licked her lips teasingly.
Chakotay grinned and moved his hands to her shoulders and pulled her up.
She went willingly this time and before she could say anything, Chakotay framed her face in his large hands and his mouth came crashing down on hers.
While kissing her passionately, Chakotay bent slightly and slipping his hand behind her knees, he lifted her effortlessly into his arms.
Carefully stepping out of his pants, he turned and carried her to her bed. He laid her down and climbed in beside her.
"Why now?" he asked quietly. "What’s caused you to change your mind?"
She looked up at him, lying propped up on his elbow, gazing down at her.
"I’ve just finally realized that you and I can be together in every way and still command Voyager."
She paused.
"My fear was that if you and I got together, I’d give up trying to get home."
"But you haven’t." He said.
"No." She answered. "In fact, I’m more determined than ever." She paused again and a smile flitted to her face. "I’m quite anxious for mom and Phoebe to meet you. I know they’ll love you just as much as I do. And Tayryn, I want so badly for her to meet all of her family."
He smiled softly.
"What about the protocols?"
She shook her head.
"Chakotay, you took the same command courses I did. You know as well as I do, there are no rules prohibiting a captain and first officer from getting romantically involved." She said and sighed. "The protocols I’ve established, I established on my first command. After..."
She broke off, not finishing.
"After what happened to Justin and your father." He finished quietly.
She nodded.
"I never wanted to go through that kind of pain again." She said. "Hence the protocols."
"And now?" He asked. "There’s still that chance."
A shiver ran through her body.
"I know." She replied. "And I don’t know if it’s because I’m older, but I’ve realized that it would be infinitely more painful to lose you, not having told you or shown you how much I love you. Not that I’m saying it would be easy to lose you now, but..."
"I know exactly what you mean." He said, taking her hand and giving it a squeeze.
She looked into his eyes and saw that he did indeed understand.
"But, enough of that kind of talk." She said and then smiled. "Because I don’t plan on losing you anytime soon. I plan on us having a long, healthy life together."
Chakotay grinned and hugged her to him.
"I love you, Kathryn Janeway." He said happily.
"I love you too, Chakotay." She replied. "More than I’ve ever loved anyone in my life."
He pulled back and looked at her.
"It’s true." She said. "Justin was my first love. And Mark, well, we grew up together and he was there to help me get over the loss of Justin and we grew to love each other."
She paused.
"But what I feel for you goes beyond what I felt for them." She tried to explain. "As a scientist, I’ve never really believed in soul mates, love at first sight or destiny. That is until I met you."
He smiled.
"There’s this connection between us. A bond." She continued. "And it was there right from the start."
"And is scared you." He pointed out.
She nodded.
"Yes. It frightened me." She admitted and then grinned. "Why do you think I fought so hard to keep our relationship purely platonic?"
She paused and her grin melted into a soft smile.
"You felt it too. But you never pushed. Why?"
"Because I’m a patient man." He answered. "And as you pointed out, there was that little thing called destiny. The moment I saw you, I knew the fates had brought us together."
"Thank the spirits!" She said and he laughed.
"So," she said after a moment. "All we need to do now is go through the ship’s database and find a marriage ceremony that doesn’t require a ship’s captain and..."
He sat up then.
"Hold that thought." He said, skirting down to the foot of the bed. "I’ll be right back."
"Chakotay?" She called to him, as he moved to the door. "Where are you going?’
"If we’re going to do this." She heard him saying. "We’re going to do this right."
Kathryn shook her head, s slightly confused look on her face.
While she waited for him to return, she sat up and pulled her negligee off, throwing it on the chair in the corner.
She ran her fingers through her hair and then moved so that she was reclining back on the pillows.
When she heard his returning footsteps, she turned towards the doorway.
Moments later, he appeared, still naked, but his right hand was closed in a tight fist.
He stopped when he saw her and had to fight to keep control over his desires. He did however let a slight groan sound deep in his throat.
She smiled.
"You’re a vixen." He said, advancing towards her. He stopped when he got to the side of the bed. He reached out and grabbed her hand. "Come here."
He pulled her so that she was sitting on the edge of the bed facing him.
"Chakotay, what...?" She didn’t finish.
Chakotay had gotten down on one knee before her and had taken her left hand in his.
"I hadn’t planned on doing this until we made it back home." He began. "But as usual, you continue to throw surprises at me."
He paused.
"I even had it all planned out. A moonlit sail on the
real
Despite knowing what he was going to ask next, Kathryn’s heart began to pound in her chest.
"I was even, in the short space of time walking back to my room, trying to come up with the perfect words to use. And I had them." He said. "But then, you had to go and remove your negligee. And now all I can think of is making love to you."
She chuckled.
"So, I’m just going to come right out and say it." He took a deep breath. "I love you, Kathryn, with all my heart and soul. Will you marry me?"
She gasped then when he produced a simple, yet elegant emerald ring. Her eyes filled with tears as he slipped the ring on her finger.
"Oh yes, I’ll marry you!" She exclaimed when she finally found her voice. "A thousand times, yes!"
Chakotay beamed and stood up, pulling her into his embrace.
He kissed her so gently it took her breath away.
"Just promise me one thing." She said as she allowed him to lower their bodies onto the bed.
"Mmm. What’s that?" He murmured, kissing her breasts.
"That if anyone asks how you proposed. You’ll tell them we were fully clothed."
Chakotay lifted his head to look at her.
Suddenly, they both broke into a fit of laughter, which quickly subsided as Chakotay slid his hands between their bodies and brushed his fingers through her curls, slipping a finger inside her.
"Your wish is my command." He said as he slowly moved his finger inside her, his thumb rubbing over her clit.
"God, I love you!" She moaned, feeling her body respond to his masterful touch. She arched into him, wanting more.
With his free hand, he caressed one of her breasts, while his mouth suckled the other one.
Kathryn moaned again and grabbed his face in her hands, pulling his mouth to hers. After kissing him passionately, she broke off the kiss, but held his face mere inches from hers.
"I hate to rush this, but we do have all night." She said, her voice low. "And it’s been so long. I want you inside me. Now."
Chakotay grinned and kissed the tip of her nose.
"I love it when you get forceful." He quipped as he shifted his body.
Then with their eyes locked, he slowly slid his throbbing shaft inside her.
Kathryn gasped as she felt a small orgasm trickle through her body.
Chakotay moaned as he felt her muscles contract around him with her minor release and held still, not wanting to end it before it began.
He closed his eyes and lowered his head until his forehead rested on hers.
Kathryn wound her hands around the back of his head and stroked his hair.
Neither one moved. Both of them content, for the moment, in the bliss of being joined.
"I love you so much." He whispered.
"I love you so much." She whispered back.
Chakotay raised his head so that he could look into her eyes.
"Forever." They said together and then smiled.
Kathryn moved her hand to his cheek, caressing it.
"Make love to me, my husband." She said softly.
"Always, my wife." He replied and began to move his hips.
No more words were spoken as they began the first of many rounds of lovemaking for the evening.
=/\= =/\= =/\=
**epilogue**
Two weeks later, on an uninhabited planet, Voyager stood watch as her crew were witness to the official joining of their commanding officers, in a simple yet legal ceremony.
Tayryn, in her godmother B’Ellana’s arms, gurgled happily as she watched her parents kiss for the first time as husband and wife.
She had no comprehension of what was really happening, but she could sense that her parents were blissfully happy and that made her smile. As it did for the entire crew.
Much later, as they stood wrapped in each other’s arms, watching the sun set. Chakotay turned to Kathryn.
"Thank you." He said.
She smiled at him and he didn’t have to say anymore. For all he needed or wanted to say was written all over his face and in his eyes.
"You do realize." She began, her smile growing into a full-blown grin. "That this is still all your fault."
Chakotay threw his head back and laughed.
He hugged her tighter to him.
"And I am happy to take all the blame." He said, laughter still in his voice. "Very happy."
~fin